Blog of nicholas ho

Sigh, life, it justs keeps getting 'better'

2009-06-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

You know, i never wanted you to have a part in it, you should have just ignored me, continued with you life. My troubles, soon seemed as if they were yours, i dont know what to say anymore. thanks.

you know, it may have seemed like a long time, everything changes that kinda crap, yada yada, but the real fact was, my heart, never changed. no matter what i said, or what i did, i didnt do it because i know you'd appreciate it, i did it because i wanted you to be happy, and yea, even though people say everything changes, i guess somethings dont. just like the fact, that i know, you and me, we will never, i mean NEVER be together.

and yea, thats life for you. everything changes, eh?

2009-06-10T06:33:00.001-07:00

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WTF MANZXZ

2009-02-03T02:46:00.000-08:00

OK I DONT KNOW HOW, BUT SOME IDIOT LEAKED SEC3N KOTA TINGGI PICS ONTO YAHOO PICTURES. WTF? and they are badly defaced. dunno what person did this __ , and its my cousin who tel

l me one, wtf, see for youselves ._.._. /\

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-12-15T08:00:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday superGIRL~!

2008-12-13T13:03:00.000-08:00

1. What have you been doing recently?
eat, sleep,dota,wolfteam,eat,sleep,dota,wolfteam(:
2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
when it hangs, yes ==
3. What happened at 10am today?
uhh...dreamland?
4. When did you last cry?
I have no fucking idea==
5. Do you believe in fate or destiny?
yes, but i believe u can change them
6. What do you want in your life now?
Not sure anymore
7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
if its too heavy, umbrella, if not, just walk, why not?
8. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?
myself,duh?
9. What bottoms are you aring now?
Levis!
10. What is the nicest thing in your inbox?
i have no idea...
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
no...?
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from someone?
no==
13. What was the last movie you caught?
BOLT!'superdog'
14. What are you proud of?
my super supportive friends?
15. What does your oldest text msg in your inbox say?
I cannt go sorrie
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
擦肩而過 i think...
17. Do you have any nicknames?
superBOY™,Potato™,Nana(dont ask me,and its not what you think=,=),Nickeh,Nick...
18. What does your last received text msg say?
Lol okay, dont sleep too late ah.
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
7am
20. Are you currently happy?
no
21. Who gives you the best advice?
Dan!
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
HELL YEA!
23. With whom did you talk on the phone last night?
Darius.
24. Is something bugging you now?
Yep, the mosquito buzzing around me...
25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
hongchye
26. Do you wear toe socks?
NO, they look wierd==
27. Who was the last person you called?
darius.
28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
....
29. What annoys you most in a person?
a REAL retard==
30. Do you have a crush on someone?
notsureanymore
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
cocaine, no, Caffeine, yes.
32. What is the colour of your room?
white
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
sure.why not?[mostly depends on who it is also..]i'll keep half of it, and donate the rest(: 34. Do you believe in the saying, 'Talk is cheap'?
yep...
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
me
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
...
38. Did you see the last person you kissed recently?
uhh...of cause u'd see the last person who kissed you?
39. Do you have a life?
hmm...i'm not really sure... high chances for a NO
39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they didn't?
Nope...?
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
i dunno, i'm random
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
....
42. Last time you smiled?
Eons ago.
43. Have you changed this year?
sure, i've changed my clothes....
44. What are you listening to right now?
Emma Roberts - this is me
45. Are you talking to someone while doing this?
does my imaginary friend count?
46. Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
Half opened
47. Is there a quote you live by?
just smile, and keep walking, nobody knows whats happening beneath you, not many people know how i feel underneath right? just think i'm happy.
48. Do you want someone you can never have?
that depends...
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yep.
50. What was the worst idea you've had this week?
hmm...trying to brush my teeth w/o toothpaste(ran out)
51. What were you doing tihs morning at 1am?
uhh,gaming?
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Yes and No
53. What song best describes your love life?
I Write Sins Not Tradgedies
54. Does that someone know you like him/her?
yep...
55. Who always makes you laugh?
Jagdave,hongchye,kokhwee[well,not always]
56. Do you speak other languages other than english?
i speak china
57. Favourite websites?
Facebook
58. What is your middle name?
BJ@.@ [ i am not writing that here]
59. What do you think you are like?
A no-lifer
61. Who will you choose to die with?
Born alone, die alone.
62. Where have you been today?
home,home, oh and, home.
63. What games do you play often?
Facebook craps, wolfteam, DOTA
64. Who are you missing now?
i dont know.
65. If you had to choose between your friend or your lover which will you choose?
neither, but preferably, friend
66. What are you doing right now?
this stupid quiz? duh?
67. Which primary school are you from?
Aitong Primary
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
white black gray
69. What emotion do you like to show?
none
70. What is your life to you?
life is living?
71. If you have something bothering you, what will you do?
that depends on what problem it is
72. Who did you last chat on msn today?
DARIUS
73. Who do you admire the most?
no one
74. Which month were you born in?
December
75. How are you feeling right now?
no feelings right now.
76. What is the time now?
5.29am
77. What kind of person do you think of the one who tagged you?
i dont know?friend.
78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
i dont need to dye it, i have natural brown chestnut colour!
79.Why are you doing this test?
isnt this a stupid question?
80. What do you do when you are moody?
emo, eat snacks, emo some more, sleep.
81. At which age do you wish to get married?
no idea...
82. Who is the most important to you?
...
83. If today was the last day of your life what would you do?
i want to spend the time with(:
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
i trust noone, even myself
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
its a scientific fact ==
86. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?
hmm...i'll get back to this when i have a better dream.
87. What is your goal for this year?
get good classmates!not like a certain someone
88. Do you believe in eternal love?
that depends on who the couple is
89. What feeling do you love the most?
when i'm HIGH! cause i do crazy things
90. Do you think its Global Warming now?
yes, cause people arent aware enough
91. What kind of feeling do you hate the most?
anger, why be mad at anything?
92.Do you likeing quizzes?
that depends.
93. Do you believe in God?
i dont know.
94. Who cares for you the most?
my friends.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Trying to survive
96. What will you bring when you fight?
oh, i dont know now... fighting doesnt have much meaning anymore.?
97. What have you regretted doing your whole life?
ohohohoh...many things...many things...
98. What would you do if nobody cared for you?
live on, nobody cares anyway.
99. What would you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
i have no goddarnnit idea
100. What are you feeling now?
tired,hungry

2008-12-11T08:56:00.001-08:00

Who wants to watch twilight?(: contact me!

Chalets~

2008-12-04T09:54:00.001-08:00

Yea, finally posting about the chalet, finally had the right mind to post, quite fun and boring actuallys :X
First day, abit messy, rush here rush there pick ppl up, heng book in the time darius they all reach, then not so luan, then later going off liao, then polien they all call say reaching, then later say again, lost, follow mrt tracks till dunno where... then ask them go northpoint take shuttlebus, or directly take cab over, in the end, they walk to northpoint THEN take cab, like... wtf...Then didnt break my promise, went to pick up superGIRL! she wasnt feeling well, so didnt pick her up earlier): then slowly the people came.. and more things to do!, first day wasnt so hawt, kinda slackz, then evening all come, SIEWBENG LIED! didnt come rawrs, and the food delivery was esp slow==... say half hour become one hour... oh well, had thing to eat at least(:...suggested eating kokhwee, who was strumming on my Wii Guitar hero:Aerosmith™ and was rocking hit butt[really shaking it] LOL. then all snatch to play :/, then went bowlinq! i suck-ed and isaac is a cheater ! mess with score with the control board! STT was damn zai can, when hc and elisha go off, she handle 3 ppl de games non stop sehs! and keep strike, but not for herown score, for other people the score, then she damn dulan lols. then i anyhow throw, also manage to keep up, and kana one strike summore, chua tio seh! then the bowling ball, the thumb hole too small, when throw got one *pop* sound, and was uber pain, those ppl that use also say :x then they go the fridge raid the TIGER BEER!rawrs!
2nd DAY! ok ok , but the paintball people service SUCKS, i remembered i fcking booked it, undermy name, 12noon, and they say nvr? wtf? spoil mood seh, then went to eat, eat full full then go back the time arhs, everyone complain hungry, then we dun care :Xand went swimming![with a full stomach...] not really swim las, just float around, forgot my goggles): than ton sauna with isaac,[i think somethings wrong with him, he sweat kns little] and he buay tahan, after awhile wan go off le, so just follow him out:/ then go back, still lazy order food, but no choice, still order food hahas, cannot starve them:X later attempted murder, then the pizzahut was uber slow, ONE WHOLE HOUR ARGH! actually, almost one and a half hour...== and teh food wasnt enough... so went out to eat, at mac, but apparently i lost my appetite, see them eat only... and gary started the thing on YI! then everyone was LoLing there... and at night... the aircon sot sot, turned off and was freaking hot, and my body temp totally rised... think can boil water on my body liao...==... miss the chalet :X then walked out with zongjun all the way to safra outside the 7-eleven, and leg damn tired, then buy stuff, cab back, and see stuff toy wars, kana throw around :/ still got to sleep :D, AND I DIDNT FORGET THE WHIP CREAM SMASH, YES, WHIP CREAM, NOT THE CAKE, and i wont tell my wish on my cake candles(: its my secret, or it wont come true hahas, and its not what some of you think it may be... (: and the whip cream was Fugging smelly ==[pamela is a liar! rawrs]
last day most sian. elisha specs dissapear, for no reason== like wtf... sekali he sleep walk throw out the window, LOL. so dunno le lars. buay tahan this laggy com, stupid updates, and i didnt take much pictures(: i'm not a picture person,hehe, and darius didnt bring his 'wife' to take pics =X so. i'm off...

even if i forget you, your title is always there to keep, just remember your name, dont forget it, and it will be imprinted deep in my heart, for its the name that i will never forget, and no matter what happens, remember this, i wont remove this name from you, erase it, etc, its yours to keep, forever, so dont worry about me forgetting you...(:...

-revival-

2008-11-24T09:32:00.001-08:00

Hais, dunno what to do recently, stress @.@ nid check with everyone whos going, whos staying, etc, etc, =/. i'm turning into a vampire or smth... keep sleeping at daylight, wake up in the evenings...ohmygawd...=.= nothing happening recently. just waiting for 1st december! and damn you people! use facebook! join my world of blood party! hahahahaaaaaa

-=dead=-

2008-11-18T20:19:00.001-08:00

has passed away, kaput, adios, gone, smoosh, smash, GONE, totally.-=dead=-

2008-10-17T09:43:00.000-07:00

15th of october 2008,
Went gym! oo! aches =/=\=/=\=/=\=/=\!
first time go to teh Hougang Gym there... ok ok las. size ok=x
alot of people there....
Chiong-d the threadmill :D right after that... legs jelly... and hands.. not muscle pain, is palm pain== [blisters!][argh!]
16th of october 2008,
Wewt! went swimmin with Darius big n small, kx, kh, hongchye ! ooooo halfway raining =/. fun though lols. wow and its so far! LRT take around 40 mins! wow! one stop take 40 mins! cool! and ... say got lazy pool, then in the end... dun have. sighs =/. wanted to slack one whole day in teh lazy pool if got. The swim there was damn funny las.. alot of funny stuff happen lol. Kx picked the wrong shorts to bring swimming...[not gonna say what happened =x], mistaken looks from far... ShockOfOurLives!! But.. it did have its benefits from the rain and slide =x...EAsian! oooooooo :X then hc wan compete with kx. and when kx reach the other end, hc still floating around with us. lmao. AND YA! HC CLIMBS UP FROM THE WATER LIKE A BEACHED WHALE LOL! UBER FUNNY! hc kept getting stuck on the waterslide...wtfx. and my specs broke ):. need a new one. damn.damn.damn.damn.DAMN. then had kfc, and home-d! ooo. dats about it.

17th october 2008
nothing much happened actually, nothing happened other than see-ing valerie lee at hockhua tonics or something de outside there....she was getting medicinal herbs and my specs look uber funny when broken...damn.

i told you, everything i did, i did for you, i want to spend my life with you, through happiness, sorry, hardship, sickness, poverty, richness, everything, i want to experience my life with you, to make sure u do not pass on alone, to cross the journey of life together, with me, and i promise my heart to you, keeping the flame of affection burning, even if i lose my memory, i'd do my best to remember you, if i pass away first, i'll look after u, like a guardian angel, protecting you from any danger, keep you safe, keep you warm, happy, full, and just, loveyou.

SIGH.

2008-10-13T03:23:00.000-07:00

Heard school was fun today, t'bad din go=/ some wierd talks, lol. AND NO HAIRCHECK! MEANS TMR! needa go cut hair ltr == and they just catch our hair summore, now catch again, wtfx la... Crazy school. Headaches comin and going, damn.==. thats about it, nothing much anw... hope everyone gets promoted :)

*looking into the darksky, i knew it was clear, it was going to be a bad day, a bad month, a bad year, a bad eternia, everything, BAD.

2008-09-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

Today was great siols =x, drag time before meet darius lols, then went to lorraine's house =/, eat curry puff n nuggets lols, then darius eat the chicken wing...throw until the gate... then her house there got no freaking rubbish bins at the lobby -.= then at night go eat... almost 8. then ran to the damn donut factory, then heng nvr listen to kok and jerald, to go the other side... if not cmf cant make it. lawls. then after dinner, was like, downpour las. then we ran like mad for shelter... then darius and kx ran to get cab, me kok jerald slowly walk under umbrella also tio badly wet laas! then my shorts... like transparent liddat. fucsz! my boxers like... my shorts pattern lol. take mrt back, so many stares o.o! rawr. Long day, then i was trying to save the donuts ):, supergirl, you'd better appreciate it =p. but.... still looks gross sia the box... the front few donuts... smooshed up real bad. ews. OH YEA! jerald eat the CHILI PADI LOL! cause jerald compete with darius see who can eat more spice, then they drink the curry lol, then they tried to see who eat more chili, then jerald picked the tiniest chili padi there than we were like, ' eat it! smaller not so hot!' then darius pick one that slightly bigger, then when jerald look around, he throw under his plate, then act like he eat it LOL!. then jerald really go eat his chili! then face all red, lips swollen LMAO! then lorraine's mum was saying we bully him =x then jerald say he wan complain to his mum ROFLlol! fun day laas. :)

Hey, its my life, its my business, stay out of it. What happens in my Life, Is my problem, aint yours, cause anything i do, results in something happening... if i didnt implicate you, just leave me alone, let me rot, let me die.

2008-09-27T10:00:00.000-07:00

Yea, had fun today =x, supposed to go study de..but... oh well, Went arcade, FOOD!, movie, PRAWNING! and FOOD!, arcade, home-d :P, study didnt happen...crap. oh well. lols. had fun =3, And, Thx supergirl :)! that meant alot just now, lols. I HATE MY NEIGHBOURHOOD AT NIGHT WHEN I"M ALONE! RWARGH!.

Yea, so i say, why give a shit, why give a damn, its not gonna happen now, not today, not tommorrow, not ever, maybe someday it will, but hey, chances are slim, its the luck of a devil to happen, sighs...

x-ams coming, yea,

2008-09-25T02:57:00.000-07:00

stopped posting awhile for exams, gonna keep it dead till exams are over, yea. Oh, and terence has turned into tweety bird! hell yea! new class pet? :P, then, kok hair has been cut. by jinjie. rotflol, oh yeas, and btw, those words below, yea, in the harder to be seen colours, no, not my love letters or craps, yea, just my thoughts.

-

2008-09-17T23:17:00.000-07:00

yea, i love swings, call me childish, but hey, its fun, just reminisce about the past... the good old childhood days, when everyone was just so carefree, enjoying life, playing around, yeas..good times...good times... and i suddenly remember-d of a faggot name-d Aaron Ngoi Lmao. Total. Fag. xD. Yeas...good times. and the triple nicks! and one more...

Hey, you may not know who you are, but i want to tell u this, ILY, not just a slight bit, but a friggin LARGE bit, thats cause, you are you, and not someone else, thats why, iloveyou so much. So much that i so wanna stay by your side forever, giving you my warmth, my protection, and wish for time to stop, giving us all the time in world.

Yea.

2008-09-17T01:38:00.001-07:00

Lols, nothing much happenings actually... lol, gave mrs goh bonbons from donut factory! xD she said they were nice lols.yeas. nothing much happening :). superGIRL's gonna turn all sweet! xD. overdose of sugary treats!

if one day, i asked you if you would like to stay by my side, walk down the path of life with me, staying at my side, going through the sweet and bitter parts of life, would you grab hold of my hand? and walk with me?, well, i know its not gonna happen, not now, not ever, cause its almost impossible.

O.O

2008-09-13T12:52:00.000-07:00

uhs. okae... Name 20 people ehs...:
1.Alicia
2.Daniel[not the gay]
3.Junwei
4.Zhiyuan
5.Nicholas[baka!]
6.Jav
7.DariusTio
8.Kangxuan
9.Kokhwee
10.GEORGE[idk how he appeared..]
11.Wanqian
12.Amelia
13.Afiq
14.Jiawei
15.DariusLua
16.Jingkui
17.Szeteng
18.Chunleng
19.HongChye
20.Syamsul

1.how did u meet 14:
Through school
2.what would u do if u dont meet 1:
idk:)
3. what if 9 and 20 are dating?:
LOL? impossible!
4. describe 3:
o.o! hes cool! Good friend !
5. is 8 attractive?:
i dont know, i'm not gay.
6. describe 7:
prox! supah good friend xD, hes someone u can count on.
7. know any of 12's family?:
Nope.
8.what will you do if 10 broke up?:
i dont really care =.= and he will never break up, cuz he will never have a relationship LOL.
9.what language does 15 speak?:
uhs, chinese, english, and i dont know if he speaks anymore?
10.who is 9 going out with?:
hmms, you'll have to ask him.
11.how old is 16?:
same as me! 15!
12. when was the last time u spoke to 13?:
On Friday, right after lessons was the last time.
13. who is 2's favourite singer/band?:
i have no idea...
14.will you like 4?:
NEVER!!!
15. Will you ever date 1?:
uhhs.. idk about that...
16. is 19 single?:
yes....definately...
17.what is 18's full name?:
Yap ChunLENG
18.will you ever be in a relationship with 11?:
nope...doubt it, she has someone already :)
19.whats the school of 17?:
Jurong primary school
20.where does 6 live?:
i dont know=.= i'm not a stalker.
21. favourite thing of 5?:
alot of stuffs...seriously...
passing on to uhs. 9 people?: um. Wanqian, Junwei, Daniel, Nicholas[baka], Jav, Kokhwee, Amelia, Jiawei, Syamsul

I love my new book =D

2008-09-08T04:39:00.000-07:00

Teh book is so nice las! Train Man.its total pwnzoR! read read read. so interesting! i want teh movie on it too! rawrs!!!then got ppl post the stuff is so cute larhs! like teh Moomin! XD
and teh stuff to congratulate ! XD i love-d tat book!

Its the start of something, the start of nothing. Its the start of the Rift between the dimensions of time and space, it was the time, i finally found the courage to say, I love you, Woaiini, but too bad, it was in my dreams, wasnt true, not one bit, not a slight bit, Sadly. I dont have no gut nothing, only friends.

Back again~

2008-09-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

Yea, been some time since i posted, bored recently, nothing much happeningz o.o. . oh yeas... made chocolate fudge xD tasted like. Chocolate fudge. duh. then my baked banana choc failed D:... bananas not fresh >.> then turned out soggy. BAD.

I was sorting out my thoughts, when i realised, its all because of timing, timing was the reason my lifes so screwed up, senselessly failing in life, losing its purpose, leaving me with all the time in the world, to sleep. But without anything to do, i couldnt fall asleep, why? cause i kept blaming myself, over and over again, that its all MY FAULT. MY FAULT i couldnt get it right the first time, i just wanna end my life sometimes, but i hear that voice, that echo-ing voice in my head, saying, its too wasteful to end your life, Just like that. but i noe its not true, my lifes meaningless, i'm just counting down the days, till i can leave this planet, leaving the memory of your smile, etched into eternia.

woot~!!

2008-08-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

yea! made ice cream :D not bad lol. hmmm... not going up to wear nnc uniform or stuffs to perform or whatever.. no one told me what time anyway. =/ so heckwithit then =D.

i want to be the one thats there when you fall asleep, the one to comfort you when you're sad, the shoulder to lean on when you cry, your punching bag when your frustrated, your blanket when your cold, i want to be the listening ear when you're trying to say something. but theres one thing i know i definately want to be, i want to be your other half, to complete you, and for you to complete me.

Pissed off.

2008-08-06T05:04:00.000-07:00

whats it with your bloody ass problem, having fun hacking me? Is that it? well, if thats it, i curse your next generation to die. No wait, SUFFER, through getting splashed by acid, hit by a car, dropped off a cliff, fishing hook in the eye, gunshot in the brains, flashlight shoved up its***, and a life of proverty and of cause, no death till ITS 666 years old. To forever be the devil, to suffer the pain from the tormented, to forever live in the shadows like a FREAK, just like you. The reason i cursed only one generation? IT will never have children with a parent the LIKES of you.

I really want to share my life with you. but i'm selfish, i wont give you my pain, my suffering, BUT i will give u my happiness, my joy, my laughter, and lastly, my love. i've always felt the pain whenever i saw u sad, always feeling your joy when i see u laughing, smiling, kidding around. But, i still feel the pain when i see u having fun, why? cause its not with me, i feel a knife stab my heart, or a hammer being whammed into my chest.

LoL

2008-08-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

nothing much to say... eat... play comp. eat.. comp again... eat.. nap, nothing to say bah =/ Empty day.

I want to tell you this, but i just dont have the guts to say it in your face. I dont have the guts, yet i want to just say it, not wait, not say it, Shout it out, let the world know, that i, Love, You. If only i just had the Guts, the Guts to say it. I'm just a wuss, and it breaks my heart to know i can only Love you secretly.

rofl.

2008-08-02T09:07:00.000-07:00

hmm, went out to meet the meso guy today=/ transaction went fast, But... only 400mil gone through. other half sent only when the China Network is fixed...wth... i think cuz of teh olympics they nvr bother about internet those craps =/ damn. i want my 1 bil T_T and need pass to CL also lol.
I cant take it anymore, not one more minute, i cant stand the pain. i just cant take it nomore. I dont know whats happening, i can cope with it usually, but now i just cant! and i dont know why, does it have to do anything with the 7th month? i really cant figure it out... whats happening, whats changing my attitude, whats going on, i need answers,i'll SEEK answers, and i will FIND answers. I swear, i will change myself, find the problem, root it, and FIX everything.

*ouch

2008-08-01T08:39:00.000-07:00

sian lor. burnt my hand on teh damn lighter. damn weather too. windy but damn hot. wierd las! then kena caught by gabriel tay in morning when take lift =/ then pe was torture.=x yeas, still selling meso, anyone interested? 1mil 60 centzz =]oh yea, Went to mediator forum to learn about midiating. cool thou.

i want to wake up everyday, with you by my side. I want to see your face, first thing in the morning, i want to feel your presence by my side when i sleep, i want to hear your breathing when i sleep, i want to hear that HeartBeat that thumps when i'm near you. But one thing i know very positively what i'm going to say, and its, I love you

o.o`

2008-07-31T07:46:00.000-07:00

lol, blackout when i wanted to post . lmao. damn boliaos stuffs happening recently, like what chunleng did to afik head LOL! gong kia ._.. oh yea, selling mesos now, =/ nothing better to do lol.

hell yea, i cant say i really want to shout out those THREE words in a crowd, but i know i can do it, silently, in my heart, going through that secret passage connecting my heart to yours, saying those THREE words repeatedly, time after time, through the passing of years. You may not notice its there, but i know it is, i can feel it in my nerves, my brain, my Heart, my skull, my skin, i just know it, i can feel it, tingling each time i repeatedly shout out those THREE words in my heart. I just do. If you cant sense it, or hear it, this is what those THREE words mean, in three different languages. T¡ Ämo, 私は愛する , I LOVE YOU

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2008-07-28T07:25:00.001-07:00

sianded las. Book stolen also can get punished =/ diuuu.damn boring nowadays luh... but... got teh Wii Guitar™ and Guitar hero2 aerosmith™ fun =x Then teh guitar got a lag response, need to press one second earlier then will score... then sometimes auto release on long notes >.> irritating lol. Ok las. thats its, going back to play summore =x.

i couldnt believe my eyes when i saw an almost perfect definition of beauty, it was right before my eyes, i thought i was dreaming, delusional, ...lucky. But as i tried to get hold of the beauty, i realised it wasnt an object, it was you, u brought on the everlasting memory of beauty into my life.

=o.o=

2008-07-26T09:49:00.000-07:00

today shiok :D can almost full! george was usefull for one thing only, hand my the stickers wakakakas. people see his face then duwan donate le LOL. He look more like the one getting the donations instead of the one collecting the donations for the SATA =/.p.s. i became teh sticker man! :D stuck by people until look like freak =/ then got kids keep stare at me lol. fun las=/ then hougang area more people donate than orchird and amk area lol.

I dont want you to be sad,frown,or cry, i just want you to smile, keep that smile up. Keep it warm and happy,lively, dont make it freeze into a cold frown. Its one of the last things keeping me alive, freeze it out, and there i may go with it, frozen to death, forever encased in the icey coldness. Till your smile warms up my day, saving my frozen misery, and bringing the warmth into my heart.

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2008-07-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

donno who go loot my sch books la...sianded... then computer sot sot... books gone, computer gone, whats next, life gone? Zzz sianz =/ nthn much to say...

Life being so bad, the only thing capable of cheering me up is that warm,cheerful smile, and all i want to do now is to see it for two more times, now, and forever. I dont give a damn what they say, its my life, my problems, my answers. They can choose to help, but they cant force their decisions to be mine, all they can do is suggest, not imprint. Thats all i noe, Te Quiero.
ich liebe dich.

Life.SUCKS.bad.

2008-07-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

This stinks, computer auto restarts for idk what reasons, then today when i turn on com, WOW my desktop was empty, all i found was. Recycle Bin. and other craps which was there at the first time i bought this crap comp. NOOB VISTA , you creators of it, can go to hell, and suckass. Challenger too, distributing this kind of shit ass programs. WTH IS WITH YOU GUYS. first, the main admin is registered under Challenger, not me and i cant change it, wth? Secondly, whats with the auto reboot each time an update which i did not accept happens? huh? WTH IS WITH THAT, you guys can go to hell with your dumbass vista which is ruining my computer dammit DAMMIT. i lost my data, codes, passwords, favourites all those shit, BECAUSE OF YOUR BULLSHIT PROGRAM. guys, if your testing something out, make sure it WORKS PROPERLY, and its user friendly not some assface system that ruins your gameplay, work, life. dammit. test it out u retards. whats going to happen next, is my computer going to blow up?

life is bad, BAD, thanks to know-it-all science geeks with probably no idea what their doing and just putting together some rubbish and calling it a goodassprogram worth buying and using. wth is with that, fucking nerds, dont piss me off anymore, dont take our ignorance, and abuse it by giving us crapshit stuff to test out, why not, use it yourself, SAVE YOUR INFORMATION, IMPORTANT STUFF IN IT, GET IT LOST, THEN SCREAM YOUR ASS OFF. NUBILES.SUCK ASS.NOOBS.

dnt cars!fwooom fwoom!

2008-07-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

lol, today cooool :X Xinmin Secondary F1 car 3rd position! ftw! better than none :DD. Other school reaction time so good o.o... got o.oo1 de >.> even got one 0.123 lol.=/ fell asleep during the middle part of teh races LOL =x Then me, kinsum, zj ,hweekiang saw something that was so shocking :D=x=/=o =O=! =L =p lolafied!!~!~!~! not gonna say it here thou =/

i cant forget the smile thats etched into my deepest parts of my memories, carved in cruely, swift, and unforgetable. It was that smile, that warm smile from your face, which froze my breath, took my heart, shredded apart my body, and burnt my soul away. It was that smile, that woke me up from the days worst happenings, and brought on the sun, the moon, the stars, the rainbow, the world, into my eyes, forming that Spectacular look that will never be forgotten, etched into my deepest, darkest memories. Never to be forgotten, yet, close to be remembered. Fallen into the rift of the mind, which holds the dearest of all memories, and secrets.

kidnapping plans FTW :D

2008-07-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

lalala....tmr going DnT race car thingy! swooosh! swooosh! fwooooooooooom! :o
doubt can win that easily thou....cmf got other school...maybe better...maybe raffles :/ whas...sianded=/ lifes getting boring :o

i'm telling you, i dont like your ass-w*** face, not a single bit, not anyday, not anyhow, and you wont get to know who the f*** i'm saying cause u wont expect it, i hate u every...single...bit... curse u to hell, your 91848653897 generations to come, along with your ancestors graves, CHURNING in the grounds , and not appeased till your carcass is dragged into the depths of the 19th level of hell, along with your s**-o*-a-b**** excuses and your B**-J**-Z* soul, NUBILE.

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2008-07-21T01:25:00.000-07:00

i saw some pics of my hamster...Hammie....which apparently passed away from cancer...thinking back, i missed the times i spent playing with her*...looking back ... i miss her so much..along with the other 2 hamsters... fun..times...the times she rolled around in the hamsterbubble...Biting my friend LOL!...too bad they cant come back...wishing time to roll back...getting them back...

looking into the past...i saw a diminished figure of myself...looking into the computer screen...missing out the sun, the skies, the fresh air...now... all thats left is just bad air...bad weather...

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2008-07-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

ooowent out with darius tdae!i mean yesterday! =/ Finally posting again lols. hellboy 2 ok-ok la =/ a few nice parts...bluerobot... twin fate.... usual stuffs...nice ending song also:P *i cant smile without you. oh yeas,btw, me and another guy feigned to be a kidnapper to my online friend's *friend* on conference damn hilarious. The friend was like, WTF? U OK ANOT? WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! WHERE ARE YOU!?!?!? then they where screaming in the phone, fun thou, going to try it again soon LOL.

So i said i loved you, i kept it simple, what else could i say, i couldn't promise that i would hold u in my arms forever, keep u in my loving embrace, warming you up when you are cold. Holding your hand in the darkness. Thats all i could do but, i just need you to know this,
私は愛する.

yoyo exams finishing

2008-05-04T22:46:00.001-07:00

exams finishing soon~ zzz toopid mum go take my moniter away >.> then i go loot back...sian las she siao one sia... dad another one... say i help him do thing he bring me go out then nvr...wth...
sians... exams like gonna fail... Chinese mr tang like make us fail liddat then D & T so hard!! i draw wrong for last one crap crap crappity crap!
so crap-ed up sial and lastly visit my yuwie profile and ask me for INVITE if u interested! den... my internet now always error for no reasons which is kinda fuc-ktarded and pisses me off..

exams coming!

2008-04-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

exams are coming!omg!this is baaaddd! studying starting. comp slowing and stopping. >.< color="#ff0000">REALLY interesting happens.
*do tha wave!?
o.o o.O O.O O.o o.o o.O O.O O.o o.o o.O O.O O.o o.o o.O O.O O.o o.o o.O O.O O.o o.o o.O O.O O.o

wohohoho~joker friend :D~

2008-02-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

o.o my fren told me dis damn cool poem lols read on read on!:

I love her, O yes I do,
She's for me, not for you,
And if by chance you take my place,
I'll take my fist and smash your face
another is :
"him"When I born, I BLACK. When I grow up, I BLACK. When I go in sun, I BLACK. When I cold, I BLACK. When I scared, I BLACK. When I sick, I BLACK. And when I die, I still BLACK.
"him": You white folks....
"him": When born, you PINK. When you grow up, you WHITE. When you go in sun, you RED. When you cold, you BLUE. When you scared, you YELLOW. When you sick, you GREEN. When you bruised, you PURPLE. When you die, you GRAY.
"him": So, who you callin' colored folks?
lols. and another is...:
"Don't think of yourself as an ugly person, just a beautiful monkey."
and :
"It doesn't matter whether you win or lose; what matters is whether I win or lose."
and:
"Everyone has photographic memory.....some don't have film."
and:
"Those who live by the sword........get shot by those who don't."
and lastly...:
"If you die, I'll kill you!"

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2008-01-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

lols. got dota match later :D i see first maybe post replay here...but nid wc3 to watch de hor...warning.....dun blame me if cannot on.... :D ME,HC,and GEORGE against KX,KH,AND TERENCE. eww....

ahahas...

2008-01-24T07:45:00.001-08:00

today had fun with kx kok and ter at library lol. go STOMP see all the rubbish posts and funny posts
p.s.the idiot who go post stupid comments on other people chatbox...liddat is who kaobei...stupid sia... i got idea is who le...only got a few people i think is the one who write....LOSER nothing better to do go write on other people blog...sigh...

filling it uppp on whats happened

2008-01-15T08:26:00.000-08:00

nthn much actually. day before sch start i tot i same class as jw hc zj they all... they called hc to ask if wanna sit together.then terence msg me say sit together. then i say see first... in the end different class. wth sia then no choice sit with terence.lols. then darius go msg me say kok sitting with him, dun snatch!
den like damn funny....so damn siians lor.sch start le...
and i juz noticed... no ppl take history lol. all geography :D yea.lols.boring... today slack around with kx darius kok and gary... but one go class, one go band... then walk around...then one out from class... then one go in media.... then i go off le then kok come out... lols sia...
and lastly trying to save my blog out of rotting :P

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2007-12-04T21:41:00.000-08:00

eww so little ppl wish me happy b'dae derh...rest all family.only zj alicia felicia...>.< sigh...

Finally!

2007-11-29T10:36:00.001-08:00

Finally got time post :D too busy recently. B'dae on this sat!!! happieeee!!!.2'dec :D yayayes.happy happy happy.:D oh yeah... blog almsot dead liao :P.anyways. posted. thx for tagging :D. those who TAGGED and CHATTEDtat at my CHAT BOX :D.
*a smile a day keeps the frowns away :D
p.s. nvr stop smiling :D hope ya all keep smiling :D

moving house~

2007-11-18T23:41:00.000-08:00

cant be online too much.busy. >.< sobx.wont be posting much or tagging much.sighs.still will.. dotaXD

The wild wild wet pics!woow~

2007-11-12T18:12:00.000-08:00

it was fun.
ular~lah.
we got more.
but didnt buy.
cuz they dun like.
i oso dunno why.
oh well.here we go.
lol terence looks scared.
p.s. nid zoom in i think. not very clear... sigh.

moving house soon

2007-11-11T21:17:00.001-08:00

shifting house soon le! sad. busy go online recently. sigh. boring. dont want change class. ARGH. shud be sleeping usually. nothing interesting happening now.> . <

Chalet fun~!!~

2007-11-08T18:20:00.001-08:00

soooooooooo funnnnnnn the chalet dunno where to start.
1st day
People at 1st day>zj, jw,alicia,me,eileen,kx,pam,darius x 2,shirley,adelina,hc,ter,kok and not tuh forget georgiie. p.s purple is gay. lol jk
they meet at 3.3o but i late x. x then some go eat at sakura some go food court.

me an kx no appetite so we juz walk around till we reach chalet.
after tat we went all to find them since they so slow.

we reach sakura le they all come out.then go back in for 2nd serving =.=

terence is salmon eater.
then later we cannot find jw they all so we check the lan shop inside.
then they really inside.nvr ask us go.only go themself >.<

then we slack slack.but still fun.8D then at night we play sparklers XD! and candles!
damn shiiok. exploding coconut

2nd Day
people who arrived but went..
wake'd up a li'l late.
day was fun!.
waited for wanqiian felicia yuen ling emilia karen yuxiu to go cyclin.
waited in chalet watching Detecive Q till they went mac.
then go cyclin. or was it the other way around...hmm..
relearnt cycling!!thx to pam alicia and shirley XD and others who gave me support xD.

oh yeah.while cycling stopped at beach and got this pics...

*hint Hc n Ph *hint G n C
3Rd day
we all went to WildWildWet couldnt take pic so all iie have iish tha ular-lar one 8D
i stop here for now. pics will be be later. nid go out
okkies. continued.
lols. cant get pic in here. my printer gone crazy.when iie got tha time then iie post here.
still want to stay there longer XD.
walker to RED HOUSE at night.lols.
many people outside there sia. got racers and other people who go in. more than 30 people there. includin us. but we nvr go in cuz they all juz come out awhile after we reach. then kok ask if got see THINGS in the house. but they say dun habb. only many mirrors. leading like a maze. then alot mango drop.some eaten.
lols. after that we go back chalet.DaDarius walk infront of us very fast >.<>SHEMALE! but still it was fun. a few of them stayed in chalet room. if not we sure go in lerrhs XD. or was it better we didnt go in....

going to have sum fun!! XDD

2007-11-05T01:17:00.000-08:00

haix going chalet lerrhx XD but i late lols. 8D yayay fun and loads of it i hopes. not gonna be on msn for 3 days i thinks XD and blog dun forgot to tag even if i not here and u havent~ thx~
many smile~=D 8D xD :D
~nick~ signing off ~xD

2007-10-29T11:27:00.000-07:00

me~jw~dadarius~xiaodarius~

the last pic~ our steamboat tgthers pic. look like daytime

happy times!! we enjoyed our time together!!! i avoided so many pics :) hehe only a few pic i come out i want more days like tis